motherhood + contradictions

motherhood + contradictions

motherhood, for me, is full of contradictions. I never knew how many conflicting thoughts and feelings I would have. I feel pulled in different directions emotionally, mentally, and often physically almost every day. 🤍 like desperately craving space and time alone, but then wishing I was holding and playing with them when they‘re asleep or we’re apart. wanting my girls to be more independent but feeling sad when they don’t need me in the same way. wishing I was free of responsibility and could stay up late and sleep in, but feeling content and honored by the responsibility of being a mother. wanting to do […]

to the moms who have new babies, are pregnant, or trying to start or grow their families during a pandemic

to the moms who have new babies, are pregnant, or trying to start or grow their families during a pandemic

my daughter Winnie was born on February 13, almost exactly one month before the world shut down for the coronavirus pandemic. little did we know, that having my mom bring Lucy to the hospital to meet her sister, would be “a thing of the past” just a few weeks later. little did we know, a month later, many women would have to wear masks while giving birth, and some would even have the difficult experience of giving birth without their partner present. leading up to Winnie’s birth, and in the immediate weeks afterwards, we had no idea the magnitude of how life would look so […]

dear soon-to-be mama of two

dear soon-to-be mama of two

Dear soon-to-be mama of two, It might feel impossible to survive pregnancy while simultaneously juggling keeping another child alive. It might feel impossible to manage adoption logistics, while also keeping another child fed, well-rested, and happy. Time goes so slow when you’re waiting for a new baby, but simultaneously so fast when you are waiting for a baby while taking care of the child right in front of you. Your body might hurt, your heart might feel scared, your mind might be racing and the day you’ll meet your baby might feel so far away. It will happen before you know it.️ You might worry that […]

NEW & UPDATED baby registry essentials

NEW & UPDATED baby registry essentials

One question I get asked all the time is what are my “baby must-haves” both for new, first-time parents or for those about to have their second (or third). I shared my baby registry essentials back in 2018 after having Lucy and talked about the items we loved and which ones we used. At the time, we lived in a small one bedroom apartment in San Francisco, so I was very mindful of what products we registered for.I I also wanted to ensure that the baby items were ideally (1) functional, (2) easy to store away and (3) ideally, aesthetically pleasing. Basically, I didn’t want […]

kids costume dress up station

kids costume dress up station

Lucy’s big Christmas gift this year was a dress up station! I wanted to share a little bit more about the dress up station and what accessories I included.  What I love about this gift is that it encourages imaginative play, and is an activity Lucy can do now but also in the years to come. It’s a gift that can be built upon and isn’t necessarily “done”; we can always add more costumes and accessories to it! The most time consuming part was finding a kids sized costume / dress up rack that I actually liked. A lot of the options I found were […]

lucy meets winnie (and more hospital photos)

lucy meets winnie (and more hospital photos)

A few weeks ago, I shared Winnie’s birth story and today, I wanted to share our ‘Fresh 48’ session in the hospital. It was actually more like a ‘Fresh 24’ as these photos were snapped Friday morning, 18 or so hours after little Winnie’s grand entrance into the world! These photos mean so much to me and I’m soo glad we had these moments captured. My mom brought Lucy into the hospital to meet Winnie and it was such a sweet moment. When Winnie cried, Lucy wanted to give her her “hop hop” (bunny). And then again when Lucy left, she wanted to leave her […]