WINNIE CLAIRE IS ONE! I wanted to share a few photos from her birthday party (just us four + my sister who was visiting). It was a really special day celebrating! I’ve shared a lot of times how I was sort of anxious/dreading her birthday because well, her first year of life was not what I wanted or expected. And, her first birthday made me sad to think about because I knew that a big party like we had for Lucy’s first birthday wasn’t going to happen during a pandemic. One thing I’ve noticed is that often these worries and sadness and just feelings of […]
I’m planning a first birthday party for my daughter and the only party attendees live in our house. I’m watching my daughter, whose blue eyes sparkle and personality changes every day, grow right in front of me, yet most people only see her through a screen. I’m rocking my daughter to sleep in the middle of the night because she is teething and it feels like just yesterday we rocked her for every single nap. And now she sleeps on her own, all by herself, except times like now where she just needs mama. I’m grieving what I wanted, expected, planned, assumed, hoped her first […]
Hi friends! Today, I wanted to share a review / comparison of two hands-free, wireless breast pump options, Willow and Elvie. I’ve used both brands during my breastfeeding/pumping journey so think I have a fairly unique perspective trying both! I used the Willow in 2018 when Lucy was a baby; at the time is was their only version but since they have a V2 and V3 now with even more features! I used the Elvie more recently in 2020 when Winnie was younger. Candidly, I never pumped all that regularly and HATED pumping. More than anything, I hated being stuck in a chair next to […]
she hasn’t been inside a restaurant, to the art museum, to an appointment with two parents, or to the beach she hasn’t been on an airplane, to the library, to a party, or to her grandparents house she hasn’t met most of our friends, many of our family everyone instead saw her grow and change through a phone screen. she’ll never know what she missed what she didn’t have what could have been she’ll only know she was a bright spot, a reminder of hope, goodness, joy in the middle of a strange and hard year.
I love this I’m over this I want to stop I want to keep going I’m ready and I’m also not I’m grateful and proud and annoyed and tired I love the connection and want my space I love the bonding and want a break something so mindless and also always in the back of my mind something so easy and also something that has been complicated something I’ve done before and also something that feels entirely new I never had a plan a goal a timeline I’m surprised we’ve gone this long and also not surprised at all I want my body to be […]
I often share quick reflections over on my Instagram (#luckyandireflections) but want to re-share them on my blog too, so they have a more permanent place to live. A couple of weeks ago, Lucy and I had a spontaneous date, just us. We pass one of our favorite restaurants (she calls “the mac & cheese place”) all the time, but she hasn’t been there this year. We used do go almost weekly. We sat outside and ordered her favorite mac and cheese and fries and chatted about life — flowers, bunnies, school, Jack, the “very nice man” (our waiter). At the end, she looked at […]