Category: Reflections

reflections: Winnie, 2020

January 29, 2021

Motherhood Reflections, Reflections
reflections: Winnie, 2020

she hasn’t been inside a restaurant, to the art museum, to an appointment with two parents, or to the beach she hasn’t been on an airplane, to the library, to a party, or to her grandparents house she hasn’t met most of our friends, many of our family everyone instead saw her grow and change through a phone screen. she’ll never know what she missed what she didn’t have what could have been she’ll only know she was a bright spot, a reminder of hope, goodness, joy in the middle of a strange and hard year.

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reflections: breastfeeding lately

January 27, 2021

Motherhood, Motherhood Reflections, Reflections
reflections: breastfeeding lately

I love this I’m over this I want to stop I want to keep going I’m ready and I’m also not I’m grateful and proud and annoyed and tired I love the connection and want my space I love the bonding and want a break something so mindless and also always in the back of my mind something so easy and also something that has been complicated something I’ve done before and also something that feels entirely new I never had a plan a goal a timeline I’m surprised we’ve gone this long and also not surprised at all I want my body to be […]

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reflections: One-on-One Time with My Toddler

January 18, 2021

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reflections: One-on-One Time with My Toddler

I often share quick reflections over on my Instagram (#luckyandireflections) but want to re-share them on my blog too, so they have a more permanent place to live. A couple of weeks ago, Lucy and I had a spontaneous date, just us. We pass one of our favorite restaurants (she calls “the mac & cheese place”) all the time, but she hasn’t been there this year. We used do go almost weekly. We sat outside and ordered her favorite mac and cheese and fries and chatted about life — flowers, bunnies, school, Jack, the “very nice man” (our waiter). At the end, she looked at […]

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reflections: December 2021 pandemic reflections

December 27, 2020

Reflections
reflections: December 2021 pandemic reflections

I often share quick reflections over on my Instagram (#luckyandireflections) but want to re-share them on my blog too, so they have a more permanent place to live. I miss library storytime, the art museum, YMCA childcare, aimless strolls around Target, weekday play dates, the Sunday afternoon singalong, playground meetups, anything to break up the mundane of motherhood. I miss my friends friends down the street, on the other side of town, across the country, around the world. I miss birthday parties, baby showers, weddings, girls’ weekends, holiday gatherings, all types of celebrations but mostly, hugs. I miss cozy, crowded restaurants, working from coffee shops, […]

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Thoughts on Postpartum Experience During a Pandemic

November 30, 2020

Motherhood, Reflections
Thoughts on Postpartum Experience During a Pandemic

I found this photo on E’s phone recently; I didn’t know he snapped it the day Winnie was born on February 13, 2020. It brings tears to my eyes whenever I see it because it feels like this version of me is so far away. It’s hard to believe this was in 2020. So much has changed in nine months. I couldn’t have imagined that weeks later, siblings wouldn’t come to the hospital to meet their new baby brother or sister, like Lucy did. I couldn’t have imagined that some women would labor with masks; some would have the traumatic experience of having a baby without their partner present. […]

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i’m proud of the mom

September 29, 2020

Motherhood, Reflections
i’m proud of the mom

I’m proud of the mom who, in a postpartum haze, booked herself a counseling appointment. who loaded up the car with an overstuffed diaper bag and a one-month-old baby and walked into the session to get help. I’m proud of the mom who trusted her instincts. who didn’t follow one way of “doing things” but did what felt right for her and her family. who accepted who she was and who she wasn’t — that she isn’t a “make your own baby food” kinda mom and that’s perfectly okay. I’m proud of the mom who started grad school with a three month old baby. who did […]

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